My life is changing! Come join my journey!
Hello everyone that is reading this, I just wanted to speek my mind and maybe help some people that may be going through what I am going through. So before we dive deep into my life I just wanted to let you know what I am talking about first. The topic I will be going into is Transgender; I myself am a Transwoman and I want to help those whom may not have or have not opened up themselves to others. I shall begin with my early childhood; then move on to me coming open to my friends; to my college life, their support; and then finally the start of my transition to what I am currently at. But before I dive into that I am letting you know that I am not here to be pitiful or looking for people to feel sad about me. I am letting everyone in a community that I have been a part of for years be on my journey with me as friends, so lets begin!
My Childhood began as most children did carefree and full of happy thoughts. I had a couple friends, most drifted apart one stayed his name is Andrew man our childhood was awesome. His house was the bomb since he lived in my neighborhood across from my Aunt Marilyn I would hang out with him all the time. We would play in his creepy basement on his arcade machines, yes you read that right arcade machines. Man those were awesome we would play Contra and Bad Dudes all the time. I believe they had 10-15 arcade machines. His basement every time we would go down there we would be thinking there was a scary monster down there and when one of us went upstairs not to long the other one would run up after. Also the bathroom light was next to a electric metal cord so if you missed you would get a good zap, and it was always dark so if you missed you would feel it! When I was the age of 11 I had 1 female friend, I cant remember her name since that was 12-13 years ago I will probably remember it latter. She lived down my street and This is when I started realizing more about my true self. We would do makeovers all the time, we would play in her backyard and I always wanted a Polly Pocket cause she had one and I was jelious. I started asking myself why I liked these things. "am I ***", "why am I different", "is this wrong". Soon after my first couple days knowing her it got out in my public school. I was beaten, made fun of, looked down upon. I was called "***", "queer". They soon realized I wore woman's jeans and was called "cross dresser". I didn't understand when ever I looked in the mirror I saw a beautiful girl but to them all they saw was a freak. when I got into grade 7 I failed a year so grade 8 I should of been I was switched out of school because I had 'anger problems...' I tried to hide my true self from others. I became friends with lots of people because I was the quiet chilled out kid in the class. I didn't cause any problems with anyone and left my old self behind but at home I would still be my true self when nobody was around.
My high-school life was where I made some of my current friends and the more mature crowd I see from time to time today. I still hid my true self but I was still into girl stuff and I still was not sure why I liked these things. I was in a high school that was filled with stupid people and those whom would probably go to jail after dropping out before graduating. I didn't want to be noticed in high-school because of my public school life, So whenever I meet someone from public school that beat me up I would say all the time to them. "Who are you?" and they would look speechless and I would walk away. This helped me form new relationship with them and made me more mature around them since I was kind to them. Deep down I wanted to fit in with the girls in my school but when I tried memories would pop back up so I was quiet.
After high-school I went into adult education right away and now I am at college after taking 1 year off to relax. I was now out of my parents house so I was less stressed out from not having their rules. I thought it was time, I started coming out to my friends I already came out to my parents saying I was bi-sexual so this was an easy thing to do. So I was on the phone with my friend Eli and I was like "hey I have something to say I don't know how to put it" all they say is let me guess you are Transgender? All I could do is laugh and laugh in so much happiness knowing my friends knew all this time made such a big thing on my chest feel lighter so I could breath more and more. I slowly came out to my college friends and knowing each of them that I had were supportive of me I knew this is the time to start. The college I am currently attending helped me so much they found me a Doctor in my area and I waited from November to April to start on the medication for estrogen and anti testosterone.
I am currently on those medication and now have started my journey. I plan on having surgeries done and want to show the world what I see! I will be glad to keep everyone of you posted here and if you have any questions feel free to ask and I will answer them to the best of my abilities.
